July 8, 2013. Day Whatever
I have been lacking some serious motivation to write lately. Not only lacking motivation, but inspiration as well. I have a boring life. What do I write about? There hasn't been anything interesting in my life that I feel the need to write down.
I went coning. Is that interesting? So many people seem to not know what coning is. You go to a drive through (I chose Burger King because of the 50 cent cones), order an ice cream cone, and when you go to take it from the person, you grab it by the ice cream instead of the cone and drive away. Just be warned, if you go coning make sure you have napkins with you. It gets very messy.
I like the new guy at work. Thats not very interesting either. He's my age, which, at my job, the closest person to my age was 4 years older than me before he started working there. I don't think he likes me(in that way) although when we work together, which is hardly ever, we talk all the time and he's very sweet. I told one of my coworkers that I like him. I just hope she doesn't tell him. I want something to come of this, but I have no idea if it ever will. I'm closing with him tomorrow night. Exciting.
Summer is going by too fast. Though, I'm not complaining too much. I'm actually a little excited to go back to school. For some odd reason, I miss it. But I'm sure once I'm back at school for a week or two I'm going to want summer again.
Now time to get ready for work. And thats another day in my exciting life.
-Anonymous Girl
Monday, July 8, 2013
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Day 10 - The Boy Who Wouldn't Quit
June 20, 2013 Day 10.
I know. It's been a week since I've posted. Not like anyone is reading these, right?
Anyway. So there was this guy. We met online, which, yes, I know is stupid and whatever but we really hit it off. We hung out a few times and we started dating. He was so sweet and kind but he would sometimes pressure me to do things that I didn't want to do. Flash forward to March (we started dating in November) and I broke up with him because he wouldn't come to see me, it was always me who would go down to see him. We live 2 hours away from each other. He kept saying he was working on it and whatever and I was just done. So we broke up, but we kept talking. And basically nothing changed. It was like we were dating but without the title. I wasn't happy, so a few weeks ago I told him that I wanted to stop talking to him. I was done with it. So we stopped talking and then not even two days later he texts me saying "I can't fucking do this I love you too much" yada yada yada. And, knowing me with no freaking will power, we start talking again. I just can't be straight forward with this guy so I guess its like I'm leading him on but I just can't do anything else I have no idea.
Then, yesterday I was hanging out with some friends and I told them everything about him. One of my friends suggested that I tell him that I hooked up with her and now I was a lesbian. So, stupid me, I did. And he got all upset and I thought it was over but no. He. Still. Won't. Quit. He told me he was getting an apartment where I'm going to school and wants me to move in. He texted me last night:
"I'm gonna stay single til I get a chance to get you back. And I'm gonna
go up there. And i don't care if I'm alone cause I'd rather be in an empty
apartment than with anyone else. And I'm gonna pray you show up to
take me back one day. Even if it takes 1 day 1 month or a year. I'm gonna
cause I'm in love with you and I only wanna spend my life with you. I'm just
gonna be sitting there waiting for the day you walk through that door. and I'm
gonna have tears run down my face and never let you go."
So. Now what? That sounds sweet and all but honestly he just won't quit. and I know I'm a terrible person and whatever but I just don't know what to do anymore. He doesn't get it.
Any suggestions?
-Anonymous Girl
I know. It's been a week since I've posted. Not like anyone is reading these, right?
Anyway. So there was this guy. We met online, which, yes, I know is stupid and whatever but we really hit it off. We hung out a few times and we started dating. He was so sweet and kind but he would sometimes pressure me to do things that I didn't want to do. Flash forward to March (we started dating in November) and I broke up with him because he wouldn't come to see me, it was always me who would go down to see him. We live 2 hours away from each other. He kept saying he was working on it and whatever and I was just done. So we broke up, but we kept talking. And basically nothing changed. It was like we were dating but without the title. I wasn't happy, so a few weeks ago I told him that I wanted to stop talking to him. I was done with it. So we stopped talking and then not even two days later he texts me saying "I can't fucking do this I love you too much" yada yada yada. And, knowing me with no freaking will power, we start talking again. I just can't be straight forward with this guy so I guess its like I'm leading him on but I just can't do anything else I have no idea.
Then, yesterday I was hanging out with some friends and I told them everything about him. One of my friends suggested that I tell him that I hooked up with her and now I was a lesbian. So, stupid me, I did. And he got all upset and I thought it was over but no. He. Still. Won't. Quit. He told me he was getting an apartment where I'm going to school and wants me to move in. He texted me last night:
"I'm gonna stay single til I get a chance to get you back. And I'm gonna
go up there. And i don't care if I'm alone cause I'd rather be in an empty
apartment than with anyone else. And I'm gonna pray you show up to
take me back one day. Even if it takes 1 day 1 month or a year. I'm gonna
cause I'm in love with you and I only wanna spend my life with you. I'm just
gonna be sitting there waiting for the day you walk through that door. and I'm
gonna have tears run down my face and never let you go."
So. Now what? That sounds sweet and all but honestly he just won't quit. and I know I'm a terrible person and whatever but I just don't know what to do anymore. He doesn't get it.
Any suggestions?
-Anonymous Girl
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Day 3 - The Paycheck
June 13, 2013 Day 3
So much for blogging everyday.
Nothing exciting happened yesterday. I had the day off, so I literally did nothing all day. Vegged out on the couch, watching tv and listening to music. woohoo. Although, I did just get some exciting news.
Now, while I don't have to pay for my own gas for my truck as long as I get Dean's list or above in college, I do still have to pay for my car insurance. Originally, it was about $800. Since I get good grades in school, I get a discount. Plus, since I turned 18 last year, it went down a little bit more. I pay a little more than $600 every six months. That is a LOT of money for a college student who only works part time during the summer. And with my spending habits in the last few months at school, I didn't think I would be able to afford my insurance at the end of this month. No car insurance = no car. In the past 4 months, I have spent about $400 from shopping online. Terrible addiction, and I had to give myself a hard reality check. After all that spending, I had about $300 in the bank. which means I only had about half of what I needed for insurance. Terrifying.
So, I told myself no more spending. Only for necessities. I need to work my butt off this summer to make all the money I need for this months car insurance, and then my next car insurance which will be due in December (since, after this summer, I will be a full time student in college and will no longer be making money). I spent about $40 on all my books that I needed for this coming semester, which, for college textbooks is a hell of a deal. Then I told myself I could only spend money that I had on me (from babysitting and such). So far, I have been doing fairly well. I think yesterday was the first time I used my debit card in months because I needed to pay $10 for a prescription.
My roommate and I decided we wanted to go to Florida for spring break next year. So that means an extra $500 or so for the plane tickets and little spending money. My aunt and uncle will be letting us stay with them for the week, and they live within walking distance of a pool/hot tub/mall. So we will be saving some money that way. But with car insurance + Florida, thats about $1100 I need to make this summer. The paycheck I got yesterday was for $312.51, which brings me to the $600 I need for this months insurance plus a little more than $100 left over. so $1000 more to go.
Gotta go, off to work a needed 6 hour shift at work. Hopefully you-know-who doesn't show up again.
-Anonymous Girl
So much for blogging everyday.
Nothing exciting happened yesterday. I had the day off, so I literally did nothing all day. Vegged out on the couch, watching tv and listening to music. woohoo. Although, I did just get some exciting news.
Now, while I don't have to pay for my own gas for my truck as long as I get Dean's list or above in college, I do still have to pay for my car insurance. Originally, it was about $800. Since I get good grades in school, I get a discount. Plus, since I turned 18 last year, it went down a little bit more. I pay a little more than $600 every six months. That is a LOT of money for a college student who only works part time during the summer. And with my spending habits in the last few months at school, I didn't think I would be able to afford my insurance at the end of this month. No car insurance = no car. In the past 4 months, I have spent about $400 from shopping online. Terrible addiction, and I had to give myself a hard reality check. After all that spending, I had about $300 in the bank. which means I only had about half of what I needed for insurance. Terrifying.
So, I told myself no more spending. Only for necessities. I need to work my butt off this summer to make all the money I need for this months car insurance, and then my next car insurance which will be due in December (since, after this summer, I will be a full time student in college and will no longer be making money). I spent about $40 on all my books that I needed for this coming semester, which, for college textbooks is a hell of a deal. Then I told myself I could only spend money that I had on me (from babysitting and such). So far, I have been doing fairly well. I think yesterday was the first time I used my debit card in months because I needed to pay $10 for a prescription.
My roommate and I decided we wanted to go to Florida for spring break next year. So that means an extra $500 or so for the plane tickets and little spending money. My aunt and uncle will be letting us stay with them for the week, and they live within walking distance of a pool/hot tub/mall. So we will be saving some money that way. But with car insurance + Florida, thats about $1100 I need to make this summer. The paycheck I got yesterday was for $312.51, which brings me to the $600 I need for this months insurance plus a little more than $100 left over. so $1000 more to go.
Gotta go, off to work a needed 6 hour shift at work. Hopefully you-know-who doesn't show up again.
-Anonymous Girl
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Day 1 - the Ex at Work
June 11, 2013. Day 1.
I was at work today. The usual. I look over and see a few kids that I recognize, and I realize that I graduated high school with them last year. Then, thinking about it some more, I realize that they are friends with my ex. The ex that I was with for two years. The one that was my first love through most of high school and the one that broke my heart. The one that I still think about on a daily basis, against my better judgement. Let's call him Ethan. As soon as I see Ethan my heart starts pounding and I get pissed off at the same time. He comes over to the register, and I am basically hiding behind my coworker because there is no way in HELL that I am going to cash him out and try to make small talk with him. I whisper to her that he is my ex and she immediately takes over, thank God. They are talking while she is cashing him out and I'm standing behind my register trying to avoid all eye contact and pretend like I don't know it's him. His girlfriend (lets call her Dani) walks over and looks at me. She knows perfectly well who I am. She puts her arms around him and he kisses her forehead. My coworker finishes the transaction and they leave the store.
I don't still love him. I can't. It's been two and a half years since we've been together. I've had other boyfriends since then. I think I still have this strange attachment to him though. Probably because he was my first love, and he broke my heart. A part of me will probably always love him, while the rest of me get's irrationally angry every time I see him. I haven't seen him for over a year, since we graduated high school last May. I went to college, he works at a supermarket. I still think about him everyday though, and I don't know why. Little things remind me of him, a song that we used to listen to, a movie we watched together, a character in a tv show with the same name as him. And I have dreams about him. Not often, probably once every few months. But in the dreams we are always together. He comes up to me, apologizes, begs me to take him back and then we live happily ever after. When I wake up my first reaction is a mixture of sadness and anger. I am so angry that I still think about him and have dreams about him, and it makes me even angrier that I can't stop these dreams. But I'm sad because I firmly believe that we could have worked things out. We could have been really happy together. He was my first boyfriend, my first kiss, my first love. We were together from freshman year up until junior year, high school sweethearts. I really believe things could have worked out. And I'll never know.
I know I'm better off without him. As far as I can tell, his life is going nowhere, and I'm pursuing my degree at college. It just sucks living in the same town as him and having to see him sometimes, even if it's hardly ever. Those random little encounters, like today's, are just enough to make me think about him again and ruin my day.
-Anonymous Girl
I was at work today. The usual. I look over and see a few kids that I recognize, and I realize that I graduated high school with them last year. Then, thinking about it some more, I realize that they are friends with my ex. The ex that I was with for two years. The one that was my first love through most of high school and the one that broke my heart. The one that I still think about on a daily basis, against my better judgement. Let's call him Ethan. As soon as I see Ethan my heart starts pounding and I get pissed off at the same time. He comes over to the register, and I am basically hiding behind my coworker because there is no way in HELL that I am going to cash him out and try to make small talk with him. I whisper to her that he is my ex and she immediately takes over, thank God. They are talking while she is cashing him out and I'm standing behind my register trying to avoid all eye contact and pretend like I don't know it's him. His girlfriend (lets call her Dani) walks over and looks at me. She knows perfectly well who I am. She puts her arms around him and he kisses her forehead. My coworker finishes the transaction and they leave the store.
I don't still love him. I can't. It's been two and a half years since we've been together. I've had other boyfriends since then. I think I still have this strange attachment to him though. Probably because he was my first love, and he broke my heart. A part of me will probably always love him, while the rest of me get's irrationally angry every time I see him. I haven't seen him for over a year, since we graduated high school last May. I went to college, he works at a supermarket. I still think about him everyday though, and I don't know why. Little things remind me of him, a song that we used to listen to, a movie we watched together, a character in a tv show with the same name as him. And I have dreams about him. Not often, probably once every few months. But in the dreams we are always together. He comes up to me, apologizes, begs me to take him back and then we live happily ever after. When I wake up my first reaction is a mixture of sadness and anger. I am so angry that I still think about him and have dreams about him, and it makes me even angrier that I can't stop these dreams. But I'm sad because I firmly believe that we could have worked things out. We could have been really happy together. He was my first boyfriend, my first kiss, my first love. We were together from freshman year up until junior year, high school sweethearts. I really believe things could have worked out. And I'll never know.
I know I'm better off without him. As far as I can tell, his life is going nowhere, and I'm pursuing my degree at college. It just sucks living in the same town as him and having to see him sometimes, even if it's hardly ever. Those random little encounters, like today's, are just enough to make me think about him again and ruin my day.
-Anonymous Girl
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